Bucket Lists and the Release of Fear

I'm a 23-year old housewife.  I'm still a student in college and I feel like I'm missing out on something.  Jarred and I haven't really seen anything.  We haven't really done anything.  We're in our early 20s and live a fairly secluded life. 

I think we're wasting our younger years.




I'm not sure whether I'm having a year of revelations, or a 2-year shy quarter life crisis, or a nervous breakdown, or heck, all three.

Doesn't matter really.


My mother-in-law told us when we first got married to enjoy this time and think about babies when we're older.  There are so many things to experience and yes, children would hinder that.

I know quite a few people (women) who would be absolutely appalled by that statement.  But it's completely true.  Jarred and I have plenty of time to think about kids.

But until then, we're gonna do us.



I dyed my hair red today.  Or, reddish, rather.  My natural color is so dark, I can't really do anything ccompletely crazy since the dye won't take without bleaching my head first.  I couldn't get a decent picture of myself that actually showed the new color:

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I think I like it.  I didn't really care what color, I just wanted something different.  I actually wouldn't have minded if it was redder.


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I have a bucket list. 

Did you know that?

Here's a partial bit of it:

Travel all across the U.S.
Travel to Canada
Travel to the U.K.
Take a cruise
See the Northern Lights
Scuba dive in the Great Barrier Reef
Ride a mechanical bull
Ride in a helicopter
Gamble in a casino
Be able to understand and communicate basic French and ASL
Fly first class
Make all my own Christmas ornaments
Pet an elephant
Have a weird pet, like a goat or chicken
Read 100 books in a years time
Learn to use my camera
Own a Louis Vuitton bag
Own a MacBook
Get healthy
Retire to the coast
Own a home
See a musical on Broadway
Learn to make good homemade brownies
Rescue a pet from a shelter
Raise children
Earn my degree
Participate in an art show
Complete a quilt
Learn to really sew
Keep a blog/YouTube channel going for years
See Starry Night at the MoMA in NYC

There are many others things I want to do and there are specifics to the ones I listed.  Jarred and I talked last night and I told him I'd like to travel.  I want to see the West Coast and I want to see Niagra Falls and I want to see a volcano.  And that's just things to do in North America. 

I'd like to be able to look back on my twenties and realize all the things we've done!  Traveling doesn't make a full life for everyone, but maybe it will for me.  I think bucket lists are so important.  They give us something to look forward to and something to strive for. 

I think I'll get started on my list this weekend by making some brownies.  I've wanted to learn how to make homemade brownies since I've only eaten the box mix variety and honestly, I had no idea homemade brownies were real.


Maybe I should document every time I complete something on my bucket list?  It's not as difficult as it seems.  All it takes is a decision to visit England for a week or take an Alaskan cruise.  All the details are irrelevant.  Just do!



"Every man dies – Not every man really lives.” -William Ross